You Gave Me Trauma

you gave me trauma but you don't know that...right?
because I'm so good at hiding things and you're the kind of man who doesn't care about anything
you gave me trauma because it's harder for me to fit in to society, to open up my heart for someone new, to let people in, to live life boldly
you gave me trauma because I've built my walls higher than before so no one could see what's really inside
The truth is I'm never gonna be the same person anymore, after you...everything transformed into completely strange
I don't know if there will be someone who cares enough to discover what is wrong with me, who patient enough to figure out what went wrong and brave enough to make the decision to try to understand me
I don't know if there will be someone who still wish to be with me after those wounds and scars that live on my body because it's hard to get rid of them
you gave me trauma...now I'm only skin and bones and terrified of myself...of not being good enough
but you didn't know that...did you?