I just did something i never thought i could
I just dig every memory of my childhood living in a big house where i grew up
It was right in front of a prayer place
I could map every inch of that house in my head
I still have all those memories i never thought I have
I remember the main bathroom, it was red and huge it has two bath me and my sister used to swim in it when we were little and stops when our father is no longer there to accompany us because mom always refuse to let us swim
I remember the bedrooms, the one in the front is mine with a big bed i never brave to sleep in because it was too big, i remember the stars that light up, i remember my rubber lizard was there in my ceiling
I remember I had a noisy bell in the middle of my door
I remember the main bedroom, mom and dad’s we all used to sleep in there, it had even bigger bed, hugeee, but my mom never sleep in it
I remember the tv and the cupboard that filled with my mom’s bags
I remember how everything was cleaned and polished
I remember the kitchen with a big fan above our head
I remember i had big rabbits, and it died
I remember the sound of the washing machine
I remember the swing
I remember the fights between mom and dad, between mom and dad and another family, mom, dad and the maid
I remember the glass shattered after I came from school
I remember the cries of my mom in the middle of the night
I remember that my dad just found out that i cut my hair, when I already done it so long time ago
I remember the changing situation
I remember the urge to take the knife and threaten my mom and dad so they stop arguing, but i didn’t
I remember my mom sneaking out to see me and my sister in the middle of the night thru a secret door
I remember me and my sister slowly moved out
But I don’t remember if i was fighting it
I don’t remember that I did something about it
I should’ve fighting for the family
Instead of waiting behind the close door, watching thru the key whole
I should’ve protect my family
I should’ve not let my dad sell the house
Because that was where I grew up
I am gonna buy it back when I could
