I came across this phrase when I watched a movie in Netflix, it hits me pretty hard because it's actually true, that "we never know if there will be tomorrow, we never promised that we will see tomorrow. tomorrow is just a concept of hope that we make,"
If somehow, I don't have tomorrows to tell you things about life, to give opinion about your clothes or the colour of your hair, let me tell all about it, through this post. I hope whenever you miss me or have the need to talk to me, you will scroll and re-read it.
I love you. I really do, even now I'm crying while typing this. You always have been a better sister in every way than me. I know you think the opposite, I know you think that I'm better and luckier than you, but the truth is you are the better version of our parent's daughter. You are smarter in every way, but you just give up easily in academics and take the easy way such as paying someone else to do it for you. You'll be smarter if you do it yourself, it doesn't matter if it's hard or if you're not sure about the answer or you don't even know the answer at all! You just keep going, write whatever you think that's relevant with something that could back up your opinion and you're done. It's not hard once it's done and you can get it done. Trust me. You also more creative than me. When you like something, you put 100% in it, but you get bored so easily (just like me), you gotta continue and master it, and make it your skills that not everybody could do! See? You are smarter than me in every way.
Appearance, it's clearly you are prettier, more beautiful than me. You knew it, but that is not the problem. The problem is that you insecure so much of other people. Believe me when I tell you that you are beautiful. You are more beautiful when you are confident. You are far more beautiful when you smile back to stranger. You are beautiful when you believe in yourself. There is no one like you in this planet, and you rock that shit sis. Don't let anybody brings you down. Always get back better, smarter, prettier. People can't tear you apart, because you are so strong, and you have come this far, you will be the best of yourself.
Kindness, you are so much kinder than me. That is obvious. You have no idea how much I adore you for that. In this world, always be that kind, even though people sometimes misinterpret it or take advantage of it. Just like Selena says, "Kill them with kindness". You can kill them with kindness because you are a nice person, unlike me, I'm going to kill them with a chair.
You are bright and shining, if certain people can't see it, leave them behind. You are too precious to be wasted. Remember, don't repeat the same mistake as I did. You are far more aware of love life. You can manage a broken heart, you can be sad, but not more than 2 days okay? In two days, you gotta get back taller, bolder, better than before. Show people that they can't break you.
If you are not sure what you will be in life, just be yourself. Learn a business, learn how to invest, learn about money management, don't trust other people with your money, don't lend people money if you expect them to return it, don't let money be the one thing that's breaking your connection to someone. Save and take care of your property and your assets, don't sell it unless you really have to. If everything is well, travel once in a while. Go to Korea, have really nice lunch, dinner and snacks just like you dream of. Watch concert, meet your idol, meet new people. Make sure have money to survive life at least for the next 6 months, then you can do all the fun things. (Also don't forget to make up your bed every time you get up, make it a habit).
I know, we are not religious people, but you gotta be one. You are no doubt also better than me at praising god. You always have god to talk to, remember that. Keep it straight every day, pray for other people too, your family, and all the muslims in the world. Life can be hard sometimes, but it will get better eventually, because the no storm will last forever, you just gotta hang on to yourself, believe in yourself you pass this storm. I will root for you, in any way possible.
I am proud of you. I am grateful to have you as my sister. Even though sometimes you are too annoying. Enjoy life by being your amazing self sis. You are the only friend-enemy I have that will always sticks with me.
