I graduated! 

3 years and 10 months I’ve been thru it all. I was not a very bright student, I also break several rules and say no to certain occasion, but I made the best student in my class, in fact, in my generation as well. I worked my ass thru all the tests and the presentation and the examination, I kicked them all. Until I am the top of it all. A summa cum laude. My sweet 3,90 GPA. 

I gotta confess that during my first tittle I wanted to be the best. The number one. That’s my goal and I basically just care about that. Score, score and score. 

In the end, I feel like a winner to myself. I congratulate myself, I am proud of myself to achieve something like that. I did make my parents proud and they watched me step into the stage as the first one to be called. I made them see me being called as the highest score and the fastest one to graduate. I am crossing my goals.

But on the other hand, I also feel like I missed so many good lessons, just to focus on scores. I remember the time when I was so lazy just to listen to the lecturer or ask questions because I don’t want really bother and just study when it comes to the test. I didn’t go to college to get knowledge, I go to class to get scores. See, how a person could be so stupid get a highest score in her class?

That’s the part where I regret things and choices I made, but still proud of me. This degree is a bridge to get my second one. It means that I have one more chance to fix things and make it right. I can thru it all with the right way. So, I decide to study hard in my post degree. I won’t be just seeking scores but knowledge and skill. I am not sure how it turned out but I am pretty sure everything will be great. Wish me luck!

Here’s some pictures of my graduation day. What a moment! 

this photo represent the happiness, ups and downs thru the whole year. before we jump into the craziness, let me give you intro of what brought us together as a solid team. 

Kami bertemu karena satu alasan, kami adalah bagian dari GenBI Kalimantan Timur. GenBI adalah komunitas bagi para mahasiswa penerima beasiswa dari Bank Indonesia, nah wajah-wajah diatas adalah mahasiswa Kaltim yang sedang beruntung! Selama satu tahun di tahun 2017, kami melaksakan tugas sebagai anggota GenBI yang memiliki misi untuk menjadikan lingkungan sekitar lebih baik, pribadi yang lebih baik dan calon pemimpin masa depan. 

GenBI terdapat 4 divisi yang memiliki peran berbeda namun sama pentingnya, yaitu Divisi pendidikan, Divisi Kesehatan Masyarakat, Divisi Kewirausahaan dan Divisi Lingkungan Hidup. kebetulan aku sendiri tergabung dalam Diving Lingkungan Hidup. Masing-masing divisi memiliki program kerja yang berkaitan dengan divisinya. Contoh: Divisi Pendidikan punya skuter pustaka (motor dengan rak buku yang bisa dibawa kemana-mana), divisi kewirausahan punya brand makanan sendiri, yaitu real mate dan delichips, divisi lingkungan hidup punya program namanya ‘fun day without plastic’ dimana kamu bisa tukarkan botol plastik bekas dengan goodie bag atau tumblr, terakhir divisi kesehatan masyarakat rutin mengadakan agenda menghibur anak kanker di rumah sakit setiap minggunya!

See, disini kami diajarkan banyak hal, literally banyak banget yang bisa dijadikan pelajaran dan berguna buat kedepannya. kami diajarkan berorganisasi, tawar-menawar, berinovasi, kerja keras, bertanggung jawab dan profesionalisme. Perjalanan selama kurang lebih satu tahun, bikin kami saling kenal dan hapal kepribadian satu sama lain, tahu bagaimana cara mengatasi perbedaan pendapat dan menetapkan satu suara. Dalam perjalanan kami menuju itu semua, benar-benar gak gampang. Marah-marahan ada, musuh-musuhan sempat terjadi, nangis-nangisan udah! Tapi semua itu membuahkan hasil kerja sama dan sukses mencapai target-target yang ditetapkan. 

Komunitas ini memberikan kesempatan untuk belajar banyak, mengenal banyak, merasakan banyak. Jadi, if somehow out there, you’re reading this post because you’re curious what GenBI is, we are front liner, future leader, change agent. or maybe you’re about to sign up for Bank Indonesia scholarship, I’d say take it. don’t throw this opportunity away. you’ll only be better after you signed up for this community.

Untuk satu tahun penuh yang sangat bermakna, terimakasih Bank Indonesia atas kesempatan yang diberikan untukku, terimakasih teman-teman GenBI Kaltim 2017, I’ll never forget each and every one of you. See you guys on the way to the top!

I have always wanted to be what my father told me. But that’s not because I have to obey him without question, like most of children do, no. I always have choice not to obey and he never forbid me for whatever it is I chose, my father will support me whatever path that I take but I’d rather chose what he said would be best for me. 

I did what my father told me because I KNEW it would be the best for me and that my father knew me better than anyone, he see me as himself, and that would never be wrong. So I want to be a notary because my father said it would perfectly fit me, and my personality. 

So, I took the path. I signed up in Airlangga University, magister of notary. I did the test, the interview and the result is I made it in. although my dad always wanted me to go to Gadjah Mada University, as he did to get his master degree, but my heart surprisingly say no. I don’t know why exactly but I just found myself made excuses not to sign up in there. On the other side, I joined UNAIR. 

I have to wait more or less 4 months until my class begin. I have nothing to do, so I decide to prepare for my departure. 

Here are sneak peak of what to prepare before you go to a new college, as I do:

You never know what’s waiting for you in there, so might as well be ready. Study things you didn’t know before and try to understand it, not just casual reading. It’s important to study before you go to new college and meet many smart people and don’t caught up in there, gasping. You have to rise, you pay a lot for the knowledge, make sure you reserve as much as you can.

If you don’t have appropriate clothes to wear, if you haven’t bought new clothes for awhile, if you think the clothes you own doesn’t represent who you are anymore, go out and buy. The clothes you buy must be the clothes that represent who you are, decent clothes, clothes you love, clothes that makes you feel good wearing them, get comfortable wearing your own style. All that would make a huge difference. People will look at your face first, and your clothes is the next. Make sure you are in a good version of yourself in front of people. You can wear your mouldy clothes at your dorm only. 

For me, it’s important to attend to new college with new equipment that support you to the max. If you have this old laptop and it often trouble/error or the battery is almost dead, you should replace it with the new one. If you don’t have a printer before, you should consider to buy one. Because you never know what you’re dealing with in the future. the equipment that works properly would help you a lot and save you from unnecessary drama. 

This is important. Plans are everything you need before you started anything. Plans what you’re going to do all day. Plans what you will do after class, plans what to eat, plans what to do after you shower in the evening, plans your gym time, plans your weekend, plans your study board. Plans keep you going. I’d like to help with the plan if you want. Comment down below!

Last but not least, prepare the mental. New college could be tough. Especially, if you’re new to the city and basically have no-one to support you. That’s why I told you before to avoid the unnecessary drama, because you have to deal with everything with yourself. Your mental will be your fortress. New college, new people, new lecturers, new culture, new you. Deep breath and handle things slow but sure. Things take time. Heal yourself from hatred. Save yourself some good mantra to start the day. Pray before go bed. Tell yourself, you are what you are, you are strong and independent. You have to study, you have to learn. You have to get that degree. 

Alright, that’s all my preparation before I took off to the next stage of my life! 

I hope what I share to you might as well help you go thru whatever it is you’re facing.

Have a good day everyone.

picture source: weheartit.com/@Izabelsito