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All these time I've been questioning myself if I was going crazy.

Turned out I was just getting played.

Funny how people can mess with your brain and your heart at the same time and it surely hurts like a truck. I thought I was special. Shit, I really believed that but as Mark Manson said that I am not special at all, and that is basically just the thought I've been planting to make myself feel better, more superior than everybody else. I am not. It all confirmed last night. How this person, shamelessly, show up after walked away unreasonably. See, I am not crazy. I just hang out with insane people that I already cut off fortunately. Please don't reach me, you piece of shit stick like a chewy gum.

So, with this mood, I'd like to share just some random things that has been staying in my mind, this might be the message from me to myself in the future, or anybody else who might need it, here we go:

When someone tell you that they walk away, don't stop them. They are giving up, they can't bare your bad times and only wanted your goods, and you don't deserve that. You are not some-kind a muse box or game board. You won't get anything that last from that kind-of-person.
Loneliness is real. She is kinda dangerous. Once you reach your limit, call for help.
It's okay to listen to sad songs, broken-up songs, depressed songs, when you are not even sad.
People are really easy to read. Don't make excuses for them to be okay to treat you bad and always open your eyes and ears, people often tells the truth but we often missed it.
They say don't fall for the same mistake twice. I say, fall for it until you crack open your eyes and see everything your brain is not capable of swallow those bullshits anymore.
It is hard to find someone that clicks with you and the other way around, when it happens, do not ever let them go. If they make mistake, forgive them. If they ask for help, lend your hand. But if they drag you down, let go.
Being selfish is sometimes good, but too much can ruin your good heart.
Do not rely one hundred percent on someone that you do not fully trust. They might say they will help you, but they could hold a dagger for you at the same time. Always have back up.
Never show your best cards.
If you wanna walk far, walk together, but if you wanna walk fast, walk alone.
People are hard to understand. So don't try to understand them. Just figure out yours!

Ladies and gentlemen,

Consider this as my middle year lessons learned. Live well.

xx, Nad.

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