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Dear 29th year old Nadia,

It’s me.

I write this letter for you. So you can open it 10 years later.

I’d be totally honest with you, because I am you. 
We are just separated 10 years and many experiences. The rest of it, I hope it’ll still be the same.


Right now, you’re nothing but a broken heart, Nad.

You walk on the street, mouring.

You sit in the class, dreaming.

You listen to mucis, crying.

Maybe you wonder what happen, maybe you remember what happen.

He left you after he promise he won’t go.

I’m sorry, Nad. I’m sorry heart. I did everything I could.

But he chose not to see you anymore after spending many nights together.

He was mean and cold. But I assure you; you never unloved him, not even one second.


Part of you

The 19th year old Nadia


I swear it's not because of what he has done to me that I've hurt so much and I suddenly remember you. I swear it's not the way that you think it is.
I read something. It mentioned the rose you bought for charity and you gave me that rose right away.
It was the sweetest simple thing you did. Because I knew you would never bought me flowers. You were not that kind of person, well, especially with me.
But charity is a charity.
And that rose was a bonus of happiness.
I never thank you that night.
For walking out until late night and talks all day. For the laugh and the memories.
For the rose.
I never appreciate it. Until now.

Thank you.
He promised to take me to the cinema today. He picked me up at Eleven at my house. We watched Victor Frakeinstein and then we decided to have a super late lunch after that. 
We went to the food place and this is what I'm trying to explain. 

...He asked me "why me?" 
"why you?"
I smiled and say nothing. It's not because I don't have the answer.
It's because I have so much answer I was confuse which one I'd say to him.
So now, I want to give him one of my answer. And all of my answer are the smalls things he did, it became big and matters. 


That time at the food place 

A guy - a waiter to be exact - approached to our table. He told the waiter foods he ordered but the waiter not really payed attention so I spoke a little bit louder and slowly. 
After the waiter passed by, he told me that I was being rude to the waiter.
He explained that what I did was something he'd hate. And he said that that is the reason why we are so different. He didn't get mad. He didn't angry. Infact that, he said it floaty. 

Maybe after all, we were different because of what we've been through. He knew exactly how it feels because he has been there before and I didn't. 

I'm glad he teached me that way. I'm glad he was there. 
Perhaps, I'd never treat any waiter that way anymore.
He opened my eyes from the very small things that not everyone could understand, not everyone could see. 

That's one of my answer of why 'you'. 
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