Hi
I'm gonna pretend like I'm talking to you right now.
and when I talk to you, you can assure that the very first word that came out of my mouth will be sorry and apologizes
But I don't want you to accept it, I know I should be punished
for breaking your heart, a million times

You said you're dead and you take down the memories with you
But I didn't know the power of love before you show 'em to me
You loved me, I knew
I loved you in doubts

Sometimes I wish I could see you from the distance
Sit behind your laptop and write stories
And I'll miss the joke you threw at me
I laugh alone in the corner

I never say thank you for being my back up
You are the rope that make sure I don't fall
Be still eventhough you were bleeding
I was too shame to admit
You were right about everthing

See, it doesn't matter anymore
I want you to know that it hurts whenever someone mention your name
Or when I passed the streets that remain me of you
Or settle down in a restaurant that we went together

It doesn't matter anymore
Because you're dead with hates
I'm really sorry
But can you hear me?

I deserve to be lonely and full of guilty
I made you even more fragile, so hard for you to get up
I wish you'd fall in love after me
And she'll fall back for you

I'd see you with her holding hands
Laughing
It'll break me to pieces
Even imagining it making my heart sore
But I know you and I deserve it

Hi
I meant to call, a couple times when I was brave
Or just wanting to talk to you, I wasn't sure
But you forbid me
You said you're dead
And I can't call someone's phone who already dead

sometimes I wonder what it feels like to take someone for granted
because you did it to me all over again
I don't have so much strength
I need you to back me up
when I lay down next to you
you should take my hand and never let go

you know, I want to listen to your heartbeat
because I won't live if somehow it stops working
and I was terrified
but you didn't see it that way

we went to a high building
you guide me there
I hate the wind that blows my hair
cause it hurts when you talk about other girls
one minute later that building isn't as high as I thought it was
maybe I could jump
and not feel anything at all

even the stars whisper that night
"she is probably the most unluckiest girl on earth,
her guy, she thought he is,
actually will never see her
as a lover"

I stand up but not tall enough, you can't see
I jump so high, you don't notice
I shout your name, you put on a headset
I come near, you already left

but you look for me
when loneliness around
when you need me to do a favor
when there's no other girls

took me for granted

if I'm not around
I hope you still there
talk and laugh like I was there
sit on the floor on that building
smoke cigarettes
drink beer

I'm not gonna say anything
cause I was somewhere else
and above all the reasons I could think of
you live your life the way you wanted
I'm not in the potition where I could decide

for you, I send regard through the stars
live well and take me for granted

- yours truly -