I am okay, I am just still not accept it. I can't forgive as easy as other people. I am not mad anymore, but I just can't pretend that everything is alright just because you made it out there. I am happy for your success, I really do, but I can't be there to support you, to listen to your stories of your absence this past year, not right now. So, I just smiled, I can't even wave you anything, just froze, pretending the video call is a picture.
I am also glad that she found you. She lost her way a few times. She is lonely most of the times because you left her too, so even though she forgives and forgets, I couldn't.
Sitting in the middle of the crowd, families and couples, seeing people are having their time together, having their own problems and struggles, makes me want to cuddle up with Boo in front of my TV and continue my dramas. The world has enough problems. I don't want to get involved yet.
So, continue the days, you have got her. You don't need me too, so please let me be, I don't know until when, but it definitely takes time. I can't promise you I'll be the same, in fact I can't promise you anything. Sometimes we just can't accept something, and that's the journey of life, right?