You know, I just can't see my mom the way I used to see her. I can't let myself treat her the way I treated her.
Lately, I realize that she is just a lonely woman who lives with her two unware kids that she has to go to work everyday and clean the house and cook and still has to take care of herself.
Since I've been sick, I see her in new ways more and more everyday. She is the only person who really does care so much about me, like she is me. She asked everything I need. She take care of literally everything, like I'm a child. My mom turns out to be the hero of my life.
And how come that I only realize that now?
Mom. I love you. I need you to know that.
I now finally realize the reason why girls always call their mom their heroes because they really are heroes.
And you are mine.
Even writing this making me cry. I was unware and unsensitive and unpolite. But I promise you I wouldn't be that girl anymore. In fact that, I'm terrified to live without you or the other way around, because basically mom, we only had each other. And while I'm unhealthy, please, hang on a little bit longer til I okay. Okay?
