From Sad to Happy Song

I feel relieve, strong, motivated, excited, happy at the same time. 

I play back all the sad song I used to listen when I was hurting so bad and the best thing about it is I laughed through all the songs, smiling through the lyrics, remembering how empty and miserable I was. 

I let people get into me, hurt me, betray me, almost destroy me. but now, they all say is I was  right. 

I was right and they are sorry, even wanting another chance to take part in my life, one more time. But I am not the same person as they knew before. The truth is I am glad that they left and made who I am today. I am so glad, really. 

All of those tears, wet pillow, box of tissues, accompany me through the tough nights. But I get out alive, until all of those sad songs become happy songs. 

So, I wanted to apologise to them, because I don't feel the same way as they do. Sounds evil, but I don't want them in my life anymore. Happiness are easier to feel when they are not around and not in my mind either. I hope they find themselves in a good place, as well as mine.

Now I feel complete. I feel blessed. I feel all the joy in this world. 

I am lucky to be who I am today. I am lucky to be alive.