I haven't post anything since forever, by forever, I mean March. I know I didn't keep my promise to write every month, not gonna tell the excuse, I take the blame. 

It's the end of July. God, the time flies so fast. Let me tell you the 'what's going on in my life right now'. So, I started my internship last month. It's fun, sometimes exhausting, but it helps me to keep fighting for the weekend and my sleep schedule never better, also I keep things good around the house. I am still adapting with the schedule and everything, but all is well. 

The world on the other hand, is worse every day, every second. The corona virus is spreading real fast, and everybody seems to have it these days. My friends or at least someone I know lost their beloved every day. People are dying out there, from virus also from starvation. The government sucks. It feels like the world come to an end. 

Kai is gone. I saw him one last time before he fell in the market. I regret that I didn't spend more time talking to him, for the last time. I hope he meet his beloved daughter and send her my regards. 

I haven't met my husband for more than two months now, thanks to the government who made PPKM and limit access for every body BUT still not make the vaccine available. Miss him a lot though. 

My mind is messy. Four months of silent has giving me headache and unanswered questions. One by one, it's okay to not figured it out all at once.